Last night was one of the longest night's I have had in quite some time. My husband and I talked and talked. We realize that our problems run so deep that there might not be any hope in fixing them. My dear slave, please understand; he and I would have had these issues had you been in the picture or not.
My husband, while I do not love him, is a good man. He told me last night that he wants me to finish school. That we can stay together until I finish, and then if things are still the same we can get a divorce. While he says this, I am still a bit leery of this proposition. Of course he said this in a drunken stupor last night, and when he has been drinking he is very, very lovey. He tried to cuddle me, kiss me, and such. Its very hard for me to let him do so.
On the pleasant side, my love, my slave came to visit yesterday afternoon. Every time we are together the amount of passion we have surprises me. When I am with him, I feel truly alive. Like I have a purpose besides my children. He would do anything for me, and I love that about him.
I received an email on CM, it brightened my day to know that someone is reading this besides my slave and best friends. To know someone else is going through some similar things.
Tonight I am going with a friend to the local sex shop...... :) I am excited at the prospect of new toys, whips and what not.
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